New Chapter

I've stopped writing for quite sometimes so hello again. It's not that I don't have anything to write but I was so engrossed in my grieves and other problems. So many things happened last year and I was lost for words since words were not enough to express my feelings at that time...Hope this new beginning of the year will open a new chapter in my life. I'm up to everything that life might have in store for me...

Got Answer for This?

This scenario just happened and it was really eating me up. If you read this perhaps you have answer for this:

Me: Kedai makan kat depan tu bukak tak?
Him: Tah, tak perasan...macam tak bukak je rasanya.Kenapa ada nak suruh beli apa-apa ke?
Me: Hmmm...ingat nak mintak tolong beli nasi goreng
Him: Rasa malas la nak keluar.
Me: Tak pe la kalau gitu, sebab ammar belum makan lagi. abg uda balik lambat
Him: Boleh la kalau nak suruh beli....

Mama...asu dah beli dah nasi goreng...
so i went down and saw that he was feeding my son

Me: take pe la, biar akak suap
Him: mintak sikit nasi tu boleh tak...
Me: tak makan lagi ke? kitaorang belum makan lagi sebenarnya
Him: kenapa tak beli dua tadi?
Me: ingat nak share je ngan ammar
Him: tak ple la...bagi la sikit

so i gave him a portion in a plate he brought to me. When he was done he put the plate in the sink. I waited for him to wash it but he just left it there...ok may be he would do it later...When my son and I finished eating the plate was still there in the sink so I washed it. Suddenly a voice behind me said

tu maggie kat dalam almari tu boleh masak tak?
It was 12.30 in the middle of the night, i deliberately twist his words and said tu abg uda punya...masakla kalu nak.

This is not the first time those things happen and I know it won't be the last. I'm used to see clatters of unwashed plates and mugs on the dining table or in the sink. Tu belum masuk botol /tin minuman kosong dalam fridge, foodwrappers on the dining table...Bukan tak boleh nak basuh atau kemas tapi I pun penat jugak kalau selalu macam ni. I'm not a fulltime housewife who could focus only on the house chores. Sometimes kalu dah penat sangat I tinggal je ,tapi bila hubby nampak terus je kena serang...kenapa tak basuh/bersihkan? when I told him itu bukan I yang buat pun kena jugak..."takkan itu pun tak boleh tolong buat, rumah ni rumah sapa...rumah you jugakkan." Memang kalau cakap dengan dia pasal ni mesti gaduh...balik-balik I yang salah. Malas nak gaduh-gaduh I keep everything all to myself. Tapi lama-lama tak tahan dah...boleh gila I nanti. So you have anything to say about this?

The Truth Does Hurt

So many things have been going on last week. My deteriorating health conditions didn’t allow me to do much. Amidst all the headaches and nausea, I tried my best to give commitments to works and other responsibilities expected from me. Though I’m not normally the touching type over petty things especially, but I can’t help feeling rather sad and bitter about several incidents. I’m not saying that I’m really a nice person but most of the time I try to be helpful to others in any way I could. And what do I get in return? Okay so I’m used to not being appreciated or hearing a simple thank you for the deeds I’ve done but being ignored when asking a favour during your bad time entitled me to a feeling of bitterness and resentment I guess. Why the favour I was asking for was nothing compared to what I’m going through right now…and to think that I’ve done most of her job on her behalf…Ok somebody said I got all mushy just for a petty thing, and hey somebody pointed out that it’s all because of this pregnancy. May be they’re right ! But how would you feel if somebody said that you’re using your newly acquired condition as an excuse for not doing your jobs or shunning out your responsibilities??? Hey I’m just a normal human being…flesh and blood who happens to have feelings. Do they seriously think that I made things up…thing as serious as threatened abortion? I don’t ask for this to happen and I don’t ask for the extraordinary treatment due to my condition. All I ask for is a little bit of understanding and consideration. That’s all!

Prince Charming and the Maid

After being absent from the blog for quite sometimes I decided to write again. Not that I found this boring ( NO!NO!NO!) but the current state of mind plus my poor health (still suffering from flu and terrible cough) really drained me off. Nothing seems heavenly than sleeping. Now that I’m feeling much better in fact managed to cook lunch today – lala masak lemak cili api and terubuk baker…good enough for someone whose cooking skill is almost nil…;o) think I really should pet myself today, I managed to get most of the chores done too! Now I’m left with nothing to do ( ya right!) since husband got a final rehearsal tonight, the show is tomorrow and I don’t have the honor to be there since nobody is going to baby sit Ammar..how I wish the day care center would provide nightly baby sitting service…so I can really enjoy my nightlife he..heh… Talking about husband reminds me of an incident a few days ago. Since hubby has appeared in a quite well known tv program it has gained him the so called unwanted popularity. And so the people in my workplace notice that my husband is actually the fella who appeared on tv. One of my colleagues has just realized about this during the KAT festival while we were resting in the hostel. Amidst all the commotion somebody asked me to show the photo of my hubby and I did. The best part is when someone actually express her opinion out loud about us…SO DIA NI LA HUSBAND ENGKO…TAK MATCH LA!!! Wow!!! That’s the statement of the year I guess. And of course the tak match part she was referring to was actually me! When I told kudin about this he only smiled.. ya la… sebab orang puji dia, sampai kembang semangkuk dah lubang hidung…Then he asked me what did I say…What did I say? Nothing! Just pretending to laugh with the others to conceal the awkwardness. Well what would you say if someone says you’re not beautiful straight to your face???